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[Jul. 31st, 2005|08:11 am] |
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Hes gone for another year. Why waste my time? |
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[Jul. 24th, 2005|04:08 pm] |
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[Jul. 19th, 2005|08:18 am] |
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I think exercising is a drug. If you do it, you feel great. But if you dont do it, you feel like crap and want to do it. Thats my opinion.
So anywho someone needs to teach me how to make my LJ all cool looking, because i dont know how. And myspace. I dont know how they get the music videos on their home page. Eh oh well.
I have to go buy Ro's b-day present today, well the final piece of it at least. And Ambers B-day is coming up as well.
MMMMMMMM cream filled doughnuts...................jk
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[Jul. 15th, 2005|09:18 pm] |
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Charlie and the chocolate factory was pretty awsome, but i still like the original.
Well im back in ol' fayetteville. The plane ride was most depressing. ME and my sister ended getting home aroung 11pm because are plane got delayed.
Back to work. Come visit me people. Wysong 7. Boone trail near cape fear hospital.
Im suppose to go check out UNCW tomarrow, or go to the beach, but im not sure.
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[Jul. 7th, 2005|08:15 pm] |
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Holy bat balls Robin a hurricane is uh'commin........
Yeah im here in Georgia, just surived a hurricane and a tornado. Scary. Actually it was AWSOME!!!! I cant explain it but it was so freakin awsome. I wish i could have taken a picture of all the stuff flying around, but i dident have my camera. :(
4th of July was really great. I spent it at the Braves Vs. Cubs game. My first major league baseball game. WE had the sweetest seats, and i got a free hat! OHHHHH IN YOUR FACE!! A FREE HAT!.....but the fireworks were amazing, even though i only got to see about 5 mins out of the 25 min show. It was still a great experience.
Ive been doing alot of things since ive been down here. Ive went camping at lake linear. My aunt is so rich, we stayed in this massive RV for the whole week. It was very relaxing. I swam jsut about ever day, rode bikes, ate BBQ, took naps, it was pretty sweet. The only bad thing is that i hurt myself trying to take one of the bikes off a "sweet jump". I totally beefed it. I had the biggest bruise on my ass. But it was sweet.
After the camping trip we came back to stay at my aunt mansion of a house. We went to the Mall of Georgia (Biggest mall in the SE)and i found some pretty cool clothes. I saw i $200 dollar pair of jeans, i was amazed. Who the hell would spent that much on jeans......so i bought them. jk. They had the most outragious prices. But i bought a few things. Damn u rich people!!!
And while ive been down here my cousins have taught me so very interesting things. Who knew all the different types of weed out there? Where they came from, how to smoke it, how to grow it...very valuable stuff. No i dident get high.
Ive been pretty much doing nothing but having a good time. And i still got 5 more days left.
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[Jun. 26th, 2005|04:26 pm] |
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Im leaving for two weeks on tuesday. Im excited, yet sad all at the same time. I cant wait to go, but ill miss my friends.
Im going on a plane....oooooohhhhh how much fun. Im terrified of them. Well i like the take off, but when were in the air at like 30 thousand feet is when it freaks me out. But it will be all good.
Peace homies.
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[Jun. 14th, 2005|07:18 pm] |
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The one day i have off and no one wants to hang out with me. sigh.
The coffee sceene is awsome. Monday nights are the best. Open mike. The music is great. Everyone should go.
I got my report card.......I GOT ALL A's BIIIIOOTCH! And now i have to be a senior. Im not ready yet. But i know its going to be great.
Im aslo going to be going to georgia for 2 weeks. Ill be with my aunt, uncle and cousins. I love my aunt and uncle, but i dont think my cousins like me. Thats what makes me not like going up there. But im going to try and have lots of fun.
im hungry.
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
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has pretty much taken over my summer.
Me and Amber broke up. :(
But i think it was for the best.
I took my SATS yesterday. I personally think that it was very easy. The only parts that i did bad on were the essay part and these things called grid-ins. I hope i made an average score. It would have been easier if i had BROUGHT MY CALCULATOR!! But no i forgot it because i am remedial.
OH and the drivers test was super easy. I thought that i had to take the written test, sign test and all that good stuff, but nope. All i had to take was the driving part which took about 5 minutes. I went in all nervous thinking that i was going to fail. But i passed. I was glad.
My drivers ID looks so hilareous. I had to part my hair in the middle becuase they said they had to see my eyes and eyebrows. It look like a mug shot.
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[Apr. 17th, 2005|05:32 pm] |
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HAHAHA MY NEW CAR BITCHES! Yes. Its a black 97' handa accord! Its so frekin awsome. Even though i cant legally drive for another month, its still awsome. Well i do drive it....just not at my moms house. She very anal about it. Personally i think im a good driver, but she thinks i suk.
Im still trying to figure out how to do this whole picture thing. So far i can add pictures to my entry, but i cant make a link. If someone can help me, it would be greatly appreciated.
But anyway. My dad totally pissed me off this past friday. Well he was coming to my moms house to pick me and my sister to go to his house for the weekend. And that saturday was my sisters b-day, and she stilll wasent sure if she wanted to go or not. So he comes and he waiting for a while, and i come out and talk to him and he says he doesent want her to come. I was like wtf. He said he had too much stuff to do.....ass. How the hell can you have so much to do that you cant spend the day with your daughter on her b-day!!! It made me mad, so i told him i wasent going to go, and that i dont like that crap. So he left. Thats i side of him that ive never seen before.
But in other news, i was working all weekend. And it sucked. I mean i like the people and i like going its just that i never get to go out anywhere anymore. sigh.
Well check out my myspace.
.http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=11392558&Mytoken=20050417175121 |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|06:48 pm] |
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My brother has become an annoyance to me and the falmily. I mean he just causes WAY TOO MUCH UNFUKIN NECCESSARY DRAMA.
Other than that im super tired.
And LJ is being super remedial.
And i saw Ashley(LJ) in the band room today. Yes i should have said hi. But im stupid. Forgive me.
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[Apr. 4th, 2005|05:35 pm] |
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[Mar. 31st, 2005|02:54 pm] |
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Well i just got back from Virginia a few hours ago. AND IT WAS AWSOME! For the most part.
Ok im trying to learn how to put pictures on this thing. But so far ive got one. SUCCESS!!!! Only like 13 more to go. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2005|08:34 pm] |
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LET IT BE KNOWN THAT I FINALLY HAVE A WORKING COMPUTER!!!!!!!! March 16 2005! THANK GOD!!!
Soooo this is whats been up for like the past few months...
- FAME was so AMAZING, i wish i was in it.
- My Dad is finally back from Africa for good!
- Ive moved on from a previous crush...FINALLY
- More than likey going to hook up with Amber
- Taking these hella boring SAT classes every Thursday from 4-7
- Going to get my car soon!
- Working my ass off (COME SEE ME AT WYNSONG 7 MOVIES, near Bordoux, im the user guy!!)
- Attenpting to hang out with friends...not working out....damn parents
- Taking lots of pictures that im going to put on LJ
Well i really cant think of anything too exciting. But i think im going to get a myspace account soon. So look for me there.
Other than that life is same ol' same ol'.
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[Mar. 6th, 2005|06:26 am] |
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Im finally getting my computer back! Its about damn time. It sux because ive missed sooo much LJ drama!! Ill have to read it later. But ive got to go. |
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[Jan. 8th, 2005|06:45 pm] |
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Well thank god that i dont have to work tomarrow. Usually i have to work the WHOLE weekend.
Yeah im at my dads house, getting away from all the drama that my mom house contains.
My stepdad finally moved out, which is a good thing sorta. The only problem is that i have to watch my sisters a WHOLE lot more. Which basically takes away any free time that i already have, which isent a whole lot. I wana hang out with my friends sooo bad. IM GOING CRAZY!!!! ARGIES!!!!
Too bad that fayetteville had like NO places for my age group to hang out at. The only place that i can think of other than the movies(where i work), is a coffee shop. That or jestures, but i never know when any shows are anymore, i havent been to one in like forever. So im hopeing to go to one soon, maybe one with SOC or something.
Ive been thinking, i need a more variety of friends. I mean i have some pretty cool friends, its just that i want to hang out with a differnet crowd of people. Not saying that i dont like hanging out with my current friends or anything. Im gunna try to hang out with people that i normally only hang out in school with, outside of school.
Thankyou for reading my pointless journal entry, whoever does.
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|04:10 pm] |
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Everytime i get back on LJ, it seems ive missed atleast a bizzilion things. And i try to read all. So yes people i read EVERYTHING you type!!! MUHAHAHA.....
Anywho, its 5 freakin days till christmas. HOLY SANTA CLAUSE! I still have to go shopping. Time to hit up wal-mart and the mall.
I finally got my first pay check! Like a week ago, but still its awsome. Only making $149, because of taxes, but its not to bad for my first one. I get my next one on christmas eve. AND I HAVE TO WORK!!!! Both on christmas eve and christmas day. HOW WONDERFUL!!
moving on
MY DADS BACK HOME FOR 3 WEEKS!!! OH SHIZZLE!!!! Its gunna be fun. I still dont know if i should go to my moms for christmas or christmas eve??? I have to decide soon.
And im finally getting my computer fixed! Im on my dads laptop right now.
Things i know im getting for christmas:
electric guitar (finally)
Digital Camera
Cell Phone
Even though that most people my age already have this stuff, im super excited to have them!!!
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[Dec. 8th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
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:( I dont ever get to update anymore. I have no computer. Maybe for christmas i can get a new one.
But not a whole much has been happening lately.
Well yeah there has.
My mom and stepdad are getting a "seperation". And hes moving out. And this time is for good. Im not sure if i should be sad. The fact that hes leaving doesent really bother me. Its how my mom is going to be acting for the next few months. I feel sorry for her.
And my dad is coming back from africa around the 24th. I want to see him soooo bad. Its going to be great.
NOOOOOOO! The first semester of school is coming to an end very soon. :( I like my classes. sniffle..
I need more time to write and stuff.
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[Oct. 19th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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Well, i finally found some privacy time.
Well a few days ago me and my brother got into a fight, well i gues you could call it that. He got all mad over not being able to find his friends skateboard. I mean he frekin turned red, he wouldent stop screaming, and then he started to through stuff. Typical 17 year old huh. Sounds more like a 2 year old. But anyway, so he comes to demanding that i find the skateboard. I knew where it was, i just dident want to tell him because he was being a jackass recently. It was over at Ro's house, so i had no possible way of getting it. But he basically wanted to beat the living crap out of me, because he couldent find a skateboard. So my mom got all angry at him and told him to stop. And he dident. Aparentlly, hearing from my mom, he spit her face, and said stop direcpecting him. Im no genisus but uh, BIG NO! Yeah my brother says he hates me, doesent want to have anything to do with me, says im disrecpectful to him..., wants me to be servirly hurt...basically he wants me to die. Thats family love right there.
And on top of that, i dont think my mom perpously trys to make me fell like crap everyday. She either gives me the guilt trip, says stuff about my dad, or yells at me for no reason. I cant take it anymore. We started this thing, where we go and hang out for a few hours, (because she thinks that there is something wrong with me). Its pretty fun sometimes, but she always makes me feel bad. She'll say something about how she thinks i dont love her, and says how i make her feel like a bad parent, and all this other stuff. And i keep telling her,"sorry if i ever made you fell that way, i never mant to." BUt she alwasy brings it up every day. It just makes me fell bad sometimes.
Lately ive been thinking. For some reason im always thinking. Somtimes its good, sometimes its bad. I need to stop thinking so much, its stressing me out. And alot of the times its a "what if" kinda thing. You know, what if i had done this, instead of that. Or what if i do this, what will happen. Ever get those kinda things.
Im a mystery to myself, and to the people that know me left and right.
Sometimes i wish that i had more friends to hang out with. Like a group of people that always hang out, and do everything together. And never get tierd of each other. I have a few of those frineds, buti dont have a group. And sadly most of them are girls. I need more guy friends. I have a few, but not as many chic friends. In two of my clases i dont have anyone to talk to. And i need to try to make an effort to talk to someone. Because i never shutup onece someone gets me to start to talk. Yeah when i talk, its the talkiest talk of all talk.... yheah... But i always make sure that there isent that awkword silence. I hate that. I like meetimg new people, its just that im not good at throwing myslef out there. Meh, i dont know. Thats it, im making sure i start talking to someone or somethin tomarrow.
You cant love someone unless you love yourself. I was thinking about that today when i was runing. I know ive heard it somewhere. But yeah, all my single friends (including me) are always talking about dating someone. And some of them i dont think are ready for a realtionship, because of the fact that they dont like themsleves enough to like someone else. That dosent make much sense, but, there always unsure of themselves. I just think in order for you to care for someone, you need to care for yourslef. And some of my friends havent found that yet. There either have no confidennce in themselves (weather it be in apperance, sociablity, or there personality), or there overly confident. Bottom line is, your stuck being you for the rest of your life, learn to love it, or you suck.
I kinda sounded all preachy there. Oh well.
Oh and another thing, my mom is starting to sell all her hawlloween stuff. It used to be one of her favorite holidays, until she started going to church. My mom is taking her new found religon a little far sometimes. Not tha its all that bad, its just that im not used to it.
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[Oct. 8th, 2004|06:44 pm] |
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I hate not having anything to do on the weekends. Well its not that i dont have antyhting to do, its just the people who i wana hang out with are either too busy, dont "feel" like hanging out, or just go and do something else.
Sometimes its like i dont have any friends, besides my best friends. Not saying anything bad about em, its just i wana hang out with a different crowd of people. Get to know people from all the different "groups". And just make some good friends before high school is over.
But i find that very hard considering that fayetteville has literally NOTHING fun to do. I need to find something fun to do in fayettville. Im thinking about taking up rock climbimg, if anyone wants to join me and try something different, then tell me. Only thing is now that i got to find a ride.
Sometimes i wish i liked in a city where everything was within walking distance. That way i wouldent have to beg my parents, my friends parents, or my "friends" who can drive.
IM TRYING, BUT IT SEEMS NOT TO BE WORKING...
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|08:56 pm] |
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Please Hear What I'm Not Saying
"Dont be fooled by me.
Dont be fooled by the face i wear.
For i wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks thatt I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art thats second nature to me,
but dont be fooled.
For God's sake dont be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the waters calm and I'm in command,
and that i need no one.
But dont believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But i hide this. I dont want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear of being
exposed.
Thats why i frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to sheild me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and i know it.
That is, followed by acceptance,
if its followed by love.
Its the only thing that can liberate mr from myslef,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
Its the only thing that will assure me
of what I cant assure myself, that I'm really worth something...." Author unknown.
This is not the whole poem. And you know who you are. Some may pertain to you, some may not.
matt
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[Oct. 1st, 2004|05:19 pm] |
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ROAR!
GRRR!
meow.
Yes. Ive actually had a decend week at school, except for the few occasional "confentations" (check dictionary for correct spelling). But yes, for some reason i feel like being crazy.
I want to have people come over to my house and chill, or go to someones house, or go to the coffee scene! That would be great! But i highly doubt that the people that i do want to come over, either wouldent want to, or just wouldent show up.
Thats it, im going to force them to come over! MUHAHAHAHA!
But it would be nice to hang out with some people that i hardly EVER SEE ANYMORE!!
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[Sep. 20th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
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Well theres just so much goin on, i cant think striaght anymore.
I finally convinced my parents to let me use there "sacrid" computer.
I miss my dad a whole bunch.
And im trying to get out and hang out with people, but there either too busy or say they will come over, and never do.
And its funny how all these girls like me. I honeslty see nothing to be liked about myslef, but a whole list of girls think otherwise. I mean i can make a list out of all these girls that have either hinted the fact, or actually said it. Im not saying its a bad thing. Most definatly not. I could literally pick one of the girls, BUT im not a jerk in that way. No offense to anyone. I love you very much.
I was laying out on my trampoline earlier looking up at the stars. Amazing. And guess what i saw shooting threw the sky out of no where. A shooting star...made a wish.
Im so emo.GRR
Wherever you're going, this is just the beginning. Even if you think you know your destination, the stars may have other plans for you. Stop worrying about your long-term itinerary and step lively on this first leg of your journey. Maybe you're leaving someone who issued an unreasonable ultimatum. Maybe you're traveling with this person on his or her own escape or quest. People say there are two sides to every story, but that kind of thinking just limits the options. Wherever the truth lies, you'll find it. Maybe you'll keep it a secret, or maybe you'll bring it back.
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[Sep. 16th, 2004|07:20 pm] |
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Well im at Rosalyens house, updating my journal, because my computer caught on fire. :( And it doesent work now. And it proably wont be working for..a long time. And i just realized i cant live without it for more than..two days. Its been about a week. WITHDRAWL!
But when i get my computer ill start writing about whats going on, but i gots to go, i cant multi-task.
Talking+typing = lost.
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[Aug. 27th, 2004|06:06 pm] |
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Well the original plan for my weekend was going to be fun. Then everyone had something else to do, or somewhere they had to go. So now i dont got much of anything to do. Im not mad or anything, its just usually i always have something to do and now for the first time in a while i dont. meh oh well.
But yea im doing pretty good in all my classes. A's and B's. WOOOOOOOO! lol
ME = LOSER!
Ive been wanting to hang out at Lauras parking lot crew, but i cant because i got no ride. I wish i had a car or something. Well technically i do have a car, but i just cant drive the dern thing. If i was not so stupid and take drivers ed earlier, i prolly would have had my liscence by now. But if i get a job my Dec.3 i can drive to and from work only.(devious thought) BUT NO ONE HAS TO KNOW THAT... oh and since my dad in a police man dude, he had this sticker i can put on my car that will let me get away with some stuff. Thats if i get the car. ROAR!
Well on sunday i get to go school clothes shopping with my stepmom. And i need some clothes badly. So thats going to be cool.
Wow this was a pointless enrty. lol oh well
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[Aug. 24th, 2004|05:59 pm] |
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Well once shcool began, i thought to myself..aboot (candian for about) how much school was going to suck. But now i have this new feeling towards it. Ive gotten to like school.(puzzled)
Yes i actually kinda sorta like school. The people the classes and everything. Weird.
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[Aug. 14th, 2004|12:20 pm] |
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Yes, hurricane Charley will be here very soon. A little less than 3 hours. WHICH SUCKS!!! Because its a weekend. I do hope North Carolina survives....this would be the 100th hurricane to hit. No different from the rest.
Yeah i lifted weights(cuz im scrony boy needs a lil muscle) a few days ago, and im still sore as crap. And i just got done running in the rain. That was great. It releaves alot of stress.
Well so much for my day plans. I was going to go the movies, and maybe to mall to get some cd's and a shirt. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOO CHARLEY IS UH COMIN!
OH and i might have a job. Possibly. I might work at the Wynsong movie place. The only thing is that i might not even beable to get a job because my parents need someone to watch my sisters all the time. I might as well make that my damn profession. Ive been doing it sice forever.
And school sux soooo bad, well only when you get lots of homework.
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[Aug. 11th, 2004|05:56 pm] |
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Well the first few days of school had been pretty good so far. The first day i dident like my classes. Mainly because of the people that were in them. Seemed like no one that i would want to be friends with. But then i thought hey....they seem ok. So i talked to so of them, there pretty cool, from what i know. So no biggie
1st- Algebra 2 w/ Ms. Collins
2nd- Art II w/ Mr. Middleton (awsome teacher)
3rd- Earth Sci Honors w/ Ms. McMillan
4th- Drafting 1 w/ Mr. Genova
The only class that im really not likeing in 4th. More or less because of the people in there. All gangster hip hoppie white people. And nerds. But the teacher is cool, he turned on some music, strangly happen to be some of the very stuff i like. Awsome indeed.
Im starting to think about what i want to do when i get older. You know like college, and all that great stuff. I thought i wanted to become an architect, but it seems like everyone wants to be one as well. I like it because you get to do artistic stuff. But i want to do something where i design and/or build something exciting. Like roller coasters. It would be awsome to build my own rides for a theme park, maybe a whole theme park. (not likley) I want something to do with art. And there are some breathtaking buildings out there, some better than actual pecies of art.
Im not sure what i want to do. Its scary thinking about what your going to do for the rest of your life. I still havent done alot of things that i would like to while im still young.
Crap dinner time. matt |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|12:47 am] |
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I really would like to stay home, and just chill for the rest of the summer we have left. But no i got to go to Iowa. ERG!
I dont want to go, but its one of those things were you want to go just to make someone feel happy. Yeah.
I DO NOT WANT TO BE IN A CAR FOR 2 DAYS! Im so tierd of traveling! Im i wont be back till the 8th, only 2 days before school. Thanx alot mom. She really isent the best planner when it comes to trips.
Im not trying be sound angery. I just want to hang out with my friends and be lazy before i have to go to school and have to do work. Well i gotta go to bed now, i have an early rise.
night matt |
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| The king has returned |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|06:34 pm] |
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BACK FROM CANADA!!!!!!!!!
OMG IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE HOME!!!
But im gunna be leaving again for Iowa in 2 days! ERG!
I must try and see all my friends before i go again.
I will explain the trip in great detail, later on tonight....i have alot...ALOT of stuff to do!
Glad im not Canadian MATT |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|11:07 am] |
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HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY RO!
Sorry i wont be able to call on your b-day, but you know i love you!
I hope you have a great b-day!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|10:57 am] |
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Well i guess u should have posted somehthing before i came to Canada. But my home computer was being very stupid at the time, and i also had lots to do before i left.
BUT I AM IN CANADA!!!
Well the trip down here was hell. We were supossed to arrive in Canada the same day we left. But that sure did not happen. We ended up arriving 6pm the next day. I was sooo fed up with planes. And a good thing that im still alive.
But so far my time down here has been pretty good. Today has been the slowest day so far. Im still not used to the time change. Its an hour and 30 minutes ahead if NC time. And its really hard calling and all.
I have so much more to write but my dads laptop battery is dying. Ill try to post in a few days.
Much love
matt |
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[Jul. 7th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
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Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts.
And we are never , ever the same. |
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[Jul. 5th, 2004|11:11 am] |
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Well there seems to be something really wrong with my computer. It keeps breaking right after it gets fixed.
Yesterday was 4th of july, and i basically did nothing all day long, but when night time rolled around i went to hope mills and saw some good fire works. After that was over, there was a huge traffic jam. Took like 20 min to get home.
My mom wants me to go to the lake with her again, but this time stay for 3 days. Dont get me wrong, i like going, but 1 day is good for me. Last time i got all beat up from falling into the water.
I still have yet to go driving with my mom. She said she was going to take me months ago. Yet i still havent gone. OH, and a funny thing, my sister who is 5, well she really starting to annoy me. Like really bad. She cries more than anyone in the world. Yesterday she stared to cry in the shower (at the top of her lungs), because her bandaid came off. ???? And she will be going to kindergarden in a month. Its scary to even thing about it.
Its going to be really hot today, 95 to be exact. So much for running today.
And Roz comes home today!! Now ill have somehting to do, instead of bring bored all day. Chaa
matt |
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| sunblock = no sun burn |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|09:08 pm] |
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I should have used some sun block, but of course my stupid self dident want to, now im sunburnt. My arms and my face. I look like a strawberry. lol
Yeah i went to the lake both days. It was pretty cool, but i got so beat up, and im tired. And all my friends are gone. Ill be all alone for 3 days. oh well
matt |
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| My computer LIVES!! |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|11:17 am] |
Its about time that my computer was fixed! ERG! I havent had the computer for about a week. And i was just dying to get on it.
Well now lets see. Last Wendsday i went to emerald point (water park) with aj. It was a most fun time. Even though it started to rain, and we had to leave early. But we got a rain check, so we can go back any time we want for free. I dont think ill beable to go for the rest of the summer. Im going to be leaving on the 13th of july to Canada and wont be returning till the 28th. YEAH A LONG FREAKIN TIME WITH MY STEPMOM AND HER FAMILY THAT DOESENT LIKE ME. But atleast ill get to see my dad. Oh and right after i come back from Canada, i have one day to sleep in my own bed, and then im off to Iowa. Yeah that sux. I dont want to be away from my friends for soo long. :( And i dont want to miss open house for school. Beacause i get back 2 days before school starts. Dont get me wrong, its going to be fun and all going to these places, its just i dont want to be gone for so long. So much for a summer job.
Ill be goin to the lake this thursday and friday possibly. Were going to go on the boat and go tubing (ride in a tube, while being dragged behind the boat)..its going to be great.
matt |
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[Jun. 17th, 2004|10:42 pm] |
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I fianlly got my room redecorated! I even painted it! The color is a blue grew, i think its looks great. I just got the paint and fisnished it all today. Of course i had lots of help from my mom, but natasha came over and painted with me. I really would have like if roz could'ov helped...but shes in south carolina. Since i spent 2 days painting her room, in which i do MOST of the work. But yeah my room is gunna look great, im soo worn out from painting and rearaging my room and all. The walls are really bare at the moment, i plan to have my room w/posters and all finished.
Oh and gustavo and aj are gunna come over to spend the night, its gunna be fun.
And i was sick yesterday, i had a massive headache, even 2 motrins and 2 tylonels dident help. And i felt like i was gunna puck. But im great now. And i started to lift some weights. Nothing to stressful. Just enough to tone my body.
I fell like having some popcorn. MMMMMM sounds good!
matt |
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[Jun. 13th, 2004|05:12 pm] |
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Well i finally got out of the house for a little while and went to the pool party and Andreas house. It was great. I dident plan an swimming, but i got thrown into the pool anyway. WHAT FUN!! lol
I just got done moewing (cutting the grass, cant spell it) my and the peoples next doors lawns. It took like a hour and a half. Not to bad for getting payed $100 dollars. Well thats to mow there lawn for about a month. Which is kinda a ripe off, since i have to use my lawn mower and pay for gas. I get maybe $50 bucks for moewing it like 4 times. Not too bad. But atleast its money.
I think that im getting too skinny, or so my friends say. I must admit that ive lost a good 12 lbs, but i dont think im that skinny. Ill just not run so much anymore. Ill start some weight training or something. I dont want to be all buffed out, just a little bit of muscle if fine. But im finally actually starting to like the way i look. Which is a good thing.
I also need to get a hair cut. I have a white boy fro. LMAO. Its pretty funny, i have to wear a hat to keep it undercontrol. And im going to get it cut professionaly. Like at a salon or somthing. Im never getting one of my friends to cut it again. lol
So far the summer has been just peaceful. I know in a few weeks that it is going to get hecktic. Going to Canada and all, and then right after going to Ohio. Geeez. I wont beable to sleep in my own bed for like a month.
Oh im finally going to re-do my room! I cant wait to do it! Im going to do it in an oriental theme.( i think tahts how u spelli it) Its going to be great. Even though half of my room it wood panel, and the other half is drywall, it will be great.
And another thing i need to do is practice my dang guitar! I need to learn some songs and all that good stuff. By the end of this summer im going to learn to paly atleast one song!
Oh and if anyone one wants autographs before i get famous, your more than welcome to ask me. I be famous as a singer...and if that fails (it will)....i will be an actor....or maybe a model...NO A PORN STAR! YES!! lol jk
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[Jun. 9th, 2004|10:35 am] |
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Yes the summer has been going pretty well i must say. Ive just been hanging out with my friends alot. Gustavo and Aj spend the night sometimes and we have lots of fun. And ive seen some people that i thought that i wouldent have seen till school began again. But everything has been really great!
But yesterday Gustavo saw his dad for the first time in like 8 yrs. And basically his dad told him that he doesent think that he is his son, and he wont ever be either. Poor Gustavo, i felt pretty sorry for him. But hes getting better.
And Natasha got her wisdom teeth pulled. OUCH! But it was really funny because she couldent really talk, it was funny. And she has to eat pudding and stuff, not any soild foods. Which rally sux. I couldent eat just pudding, mash pataotes, soup, and jello. I would DIE! lol
And now Roz is gone to South Carolina. So i wont be seeing her for a while. And when she comes back, she gunna bring Kristy! Were gunna have great fun!
Oh and Randis mom is much better now. She not in a critical condition anymore! They took about 10 lbs of water out of her lungs. That should teach her not to do drugs! DRUGS ARE BAD!!!!!!
And only July 10 ill be leaving to go to Canada to see my dad! Thats the only reason i wana go. I dont really wont to go see me step grandparents or whatever you call them. They dont like me for some reason. But i dont care.
Matt |
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[May. 30th, 2004|05:59 pm] |
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I must say i did have a great birthday party! It started off pretty slow, but it was much fun. Natasha and Andrea came over for a while, and we jumped on the trampoline. Then Roz came over, then Gustavo and Aj. We all hung out and had a great time. Ate some cake, and lots of fun!!! Then after the girls left, Aj and Gustavo and me all went swimming in my pool. It was great!!
But the only thing that kinda made me mad were my parents. They acted all weird. And today my mom came up to me and was like what is your problem? Do you not like it here? Do you not want to be here? I was like wtf dude! She thinks that there is something really wrong with me. And really there isent, if there is a problem its her. Oh and they gave me this birthday card, and it was saying all this stuff about how "my life is changing", "were here for you", and all this crap that made me feel bad. I dont know anymore. |
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[May. 29th, 2004|10:39 am] |
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TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!
And im turning 16!...wait i dont want to be 16...i want to be 15 forever!!
YOU CANT MAKE ME GROW UP! lol
IM SO HAPPPY!!!!!!!!!
matt |
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| it came too soon...shcool is soon over |
[May. 27th, 2004|07:18 pm] |
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I hate saying this, but im going to miss school. Im not going to miss all the work that i get, but im going to miss all the great friends ive met. It seems that just yesterday school began..and its over. And some people i wont ever see again maybe.
It makes me sad. Tomarrow is the last day of school. The day that we all wish for at the begging, but we dred when its near. I will miss it greatly.
And DUDE IM FREAKIN GOING TO BE A JUNIOR! I dont want to grow up. I was just in the 9th grade the other day. And now im going to be a junior in high school. Im happy, but also sad all at once.
matt |
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[May. 19th, 2004|10:13 pm] |
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Wish..........Dream...........ask yourself..........is it worth your worry...........sometimes you have to just let go........
I just seem unable to.
I have no clue.
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[May. 13th, 2004|09:05 pm] |
AHHH! Finally i get to update on my frekin journal. My parents blacked me from getting on to this site, because curse words were being used. YEAH STUPID! But i convinced them to nto block it. YEAH!!
Yeah lots has been going on latley, this whole week was busy, but awsomely fun. And shcool will be ending in like a few weeks.Infact i think in like two weeks. I DONT WNAT SCHOOL TO END!!!! But then again i kinda do.
Recently ive just been thinking alot. Theres jsut lots of stuff going on. And i need time to think. And when i find that time, i always end up doing somehting else.
matt |
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| disposable cameras = not good for picture takeing projects |
[May. 2nd, 2004|05:32 pm] |
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Well toady was a most relaxful day. It was raining, i love the rain. And i did nothing but relax, and ran for 20 min all day long. And i still have a few more hours before the day ends. And in that time, i shall draw a picture.
But also today, i got the diposable camera back, in which i took pictures for a project. OMG! THEY LOOKED HORABLE! You couldent even make out half the stuff. I was posed to take pictures of geometric shapes, they look like a bucnh of blures. Its all because i took them up too close. DONT USE DIPOSABLE CAMERAS FROM WAL-MART TO DO YOUR PROJECTS!! That or just get atleast a good distance away from the object. ERG! Now i have to do it all over again. Good thing its due on tursday, or else i would have been screwed......i knew i should have used a digital camera.
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| busy... busy... |
[May. 1st, 2004|08:56 pm] |
This week has been most busy indeed. And its a good thing that i dident go to the party today, because in literally about to fall apart. I have been doing way too much. Im taking the rest of the night and sunday to have to myself.
At times i think that my life can be really sucky, but its all just a part of growing up.
But i had lots of fun with gustavo, natasha, and roz this weekend. I would write more but i want to go play guitar.
matt |
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[Apr. 26th, 2004|05:34 pm] |
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Just alot of stress going on right now. And all the tests at school, and stupid little fights are not helping. But hey just as someone did say, i do usually get the shit end of the deal.
matt |
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